My First Step ..

It's been awhile ..
My last entry before the quote,
Was definitely not a great way to leave this.

It was definitely a horrible time for me.
I was worrying too much, Thinking too much
&Then there is daydreaming too much,
Losing alot of sleep, Failing my tests,
Falling asleep regularly in class.

I can try to explain it,
Lets say that for me,
And all those who draw, paint, photoshop, sculpt.
Theres this flow where the image in my head,
It connects to my heart,
And then it flows to my fingers,
Lets just say that during this time the flow stopped,
Like it was blocked.

So it's been really difficult for me to draw for quite awhile now,
But i think that maybe its gotten better,
There's an art competition at school,
And I'm thinking of entering it.
Actually I'm definitely going to enter it.

It has no theme, and must be A4 size,
I haven't decided on what to do it on yet ..
But as a special friend of mine said,
You can't think about what you want to draw,
It just happens naturally and comes from the heart.

So I'm hoping that it'll come to me soon,
And that when it comes I'll be on my way to recovery.