My First Step ..

It's been awhile ..
My last entry before the quote,
Was definitely not a great way to leave this.

It was definitely a horrible time for me.
I was worrying too much, Thinking too much
&Then there is daydreaming too much,
Losing alot of sleep, Failing my tests,
Falling asleep regularly in class.

I can try to explain it,
Lets say that for me,
And all those who draw, paint, photoshop, sculpt.
Theres this flow where the image in my head,
It connects to my heart,
And then it flows to my fingers,
Lets just say that during this time the flow stopped,
Like it was blocked.

So it's been really difficult for me to draw for quite awhile now,
But i think that maybe its gotten better,
There's an art competition at school,
And I'm thinking of entering it.
Actually I'm definitely going to enter it.

It has no theme, and must be A4 size,
I haven't decided on what to do it on yet ..
But as a special friend of mine said,
You can't think about what you want to draw,
It just happens naturally and comes from the heart.

So I'm hoping that it'll come to me soon,
And that when it comes I'll be on my way to recovery.

the art of The Daydream

" Don't let anybody tell you you're wasting your time when you're gazing into space. There is no other way to conceive and imaginary world. I never sit down in front of a bare page to invents something. I daydream about my characters, their lives and their struggles, and when a scene has been played out in my imagination and I think I know what my characters felt, said and did, I take pen and paper and try to report what I've witnessed."
- Stephan Vinzinczey

And even when things get hard ...

The past few days have been well not my best,
but friends always help just being there
and the little things they do always help
so i guess heres my chance to say thank you

But there are always times when i feel lonely
and all those memories just come flooding back
and all i want to do is just forget

And even when things get hard,
drawing always helps for me
but this time when i draw
its not helping
my mind won't shut up
and what i draw turns into a complete mess

All i want to do is draw, but i can't right now and its killing me.